Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Hello!
I know it had been ages since I last blogged, something long instead of one sentence. However right now, I'm already in poly. Last year, I was still at BGSS, wondering how to deal with o-levels. After that, many things happened. Such as my o-levels results, me working at Humming, and me going Japan. I guess that was the main point. I finally... FINALLY WENT JAPAN. The feeling was awesome. Trust me. Anyway, before I knew it. I'm now a poly student.
Congrats!
Well, firstly, I made it! I made it into the course I wanted. Which was Pharmaceutical Science. Rejoice. However, I don't even know if it was shy or what. I can't make friends. Or rather, I was so shy and reserved and kept to myself, before I knew it, I was alone. The girl I was hanging out with, managed to find someone who she can get along better with, and suddenly, I didn't know who to hang out with. It was awkward. I wasn't blaming anyone. I'm just wondering why I'm so anti-social. It makes me feel like a pathetic loser. I was stuck in the past, in the past of my secondary school life.
It was my mistake. I was trying to find at least a bit of 'Nad' in every of my classmate. But I was wrong. Very wrong. No one can replace Nad. She was my bff since what. Since forever. I am seriously going to miss her. No one can replace her. No one can break the bonds between us. However, no one can predict the future. What if she found a better friend? What if I'm forever a loser and she decided to kick me aside? Right now, I don't care if my classmate or whatever found a better friend and decided not to hang out with me. We don't have that good relationship yet. If Nad just kick me aside... I can't even imagine life. I was just complaining to her a moment ago. Tmr is her orientation. She might make better friends than me. But, who am I to complain? Who am I to stop her from making new friends? I need to move on. I need to interact with the people from my class. I need to stop acting like a pathetic loser. I need to stop acting like a loner.
What shy? What reserved? I need to go all out. I need to make friends. I need to grow up from that Felicia Quck in secondary school! I've forgotten how to make friends. Is that an excuse? YES! Since years ago, I've been making friends with people WITH MY BFF. Suddenly, smack. I'm alone and I keep to myself. What is this?
FELICIA QUCK. YOU'RE AN ARIES, SO PLEASE ACT LIKE ONE.
That's what I need to tell myself. I need to talk to more people. I need to be the usual Felicia. The one who jokes, who was a joker, who make people laugh! Can I be that Felicia? Why am I forever stuck in the past? If people can make friends, so can I! Didn't I want to have a boyfriend? SO WHY AM I SO SHY? MAKE FRIENDS. Talk to people of opposite gender and people of the same gender. It's only week 0. Why am I so shy and reserved? Yes. That's the spirit.
Felicia can do it. FIGHTING!
Anyway, 8 more days to my beloved bff's birthday. I will be back! I wonder if this is the last time I'll be celebrating her birthday...
ANYWAY, NAD. KNOW THAT I WILL FOREVER LOVE YOU. AND YOU'RE MY AMAZING, AWESOME BFF. NO ONE CAN EVER BREAK THE BONDS WE HAVE, NOR REPLACE ANY OF US. BEST FRIENDS FOREVER. :')
{&Here we go again;}
10:08 AM
maybe, i am just pushing you away...
{&Here we go again;}
7:36 AM
Life is unpredictable.
&My life is so damn screwed.Thursday was the worst day of my life.
But well, I just gotta bear with it.
It's just
6 MORE MONTHS.
-Ms Chong
It's just a bit more and I'm free.
What puzzled me most was:
WHAT THE HELL IS MY SENSE OF URGENCY?
{&Here we go again;}
5:17 AM
5 days to PINK bag! <3
12 days to SYF!
26 days to stepping down!
31 days to Nad's birthday! <3
64 days to MT O-level!
152 days to submission of D&T coursework!
207 days to Science Practical O's!
& 211 days to the start of O's!
GANBARE!
B-I-M-B-O,
BIMBO, BIMBO, GOGO!~
GOOOO! BIMBOS!
FIGHTOOOO-OH!~
{&Here we go again;}
8:01 AM
FORGIVE AND FORGET. It's not fair to blame the descendants for their ancestors' deeds.
It's not fair to say that Japan deserves the tsunami.
I know it's true that whatever the Japanese did to the Chinese during WWII is cruel and brutal.
But that was 40++ years ago!
Let bygones be bygones.Hundreds of Japanese out there lost their home, and their loved ones.
Do you understand the pain? Do you understand the grief?
Put yourselves in their shoes.
Imagine yourself walking happily home from school.
And out of nowhere, a huge 10m wave just swept you away.
The next moment you knew, you're dead.
D-E-A-D, DEAD.
Or imagine yourself on a high-rise building,
and saw a kid being swept away right before your eyes,
how would you feel?
Imagine the worry when you can't contact your family members.
Imagine the grief when you found out your loved ones died.
Imagine the fear when you know that any moment now, you would die.
Imagine the lost feeling when you lost your home and property.
Imagine the feeling of being stuck in the streets and your house is far away.
Imagine the feeling when you saw streets cracked, and half of Japan is destroyed.
Imagine breathing in air that are polluted.
Do you understand those feelings?
NO, WE DON'T UNDERSTAND IT AT ALL.
Because, Singapore is safe!
You complain about people being innocent victims of the Japanese,
then why didn't you think of those innocents out there in the tsunami?
How many thousands of innocents are now dead in the tsunami?
By saying that they deserved it, you're not any better.
{&Here we go again;}
2:21 AM
A new phone